I saw my breast surgeon today and after a bit of a false start with my appointments (I came to see him last week but was booked in on a day that he was away) I’m feeling good about everything.
My MRI results were all clear which is a huge relief, I wasn’t expecting any problems to be honest but there’s always that little bit of “what if?” in the back of your mind.
My biggest decision now is what type of surgery I would like to get, there’s so much to think about and I want to make the right choice for me.
The next step is to see a plastic surgeon to get some more information on what options are available to me and my body.
I have discovered that with all the different options, there is some sort of trade off. Keeping your nipples increases your cancer risk slightly but losing them means losing the last part of your boobs that are familiar and your own. Implants don’t feel the natural but using your own tissue to “create” boobs is a longer procedure and recovery and multiple surgery sites and scars. Straight to implant is only one surgery but with a slightly higher risk of complications but having expanders, which is much safer for your body is a longer process and involves two surgeries.
It’s so hard to choose which trade-off is right for you especially when everyone is different.
I’m hoping to have a combination of both implants and using my own tissue but that may not be an option for me because I do not have a lot of excess body fat due to my very active lifestyle.
I’ll have more of an idea of what surgery I am having once I see the plastic surgeon in a few weeks, so a little more waiting but it will be worth it.
My life is definitely worth more than my boobs.
I’m having this procedure to prevent breast cancer first and foremost but I can’t pretend that cosmetics isn’t a major factor too, I’m not worried about scars- to me, scars tell a story of what someone has overcome and should be worn with pride but it is important to me to be able to look in the mirror and be happy with what I see. I want to still feel like me.
I have a lot of support around me which I am forever thankful for, my partner Ryan, my family, friends, colleagues and even people on social media that I have never met in person have already done so much and I haven’t even had the surgery yet. I feel like the luckiest person ever despite everything and it’s because of the people in my life.
People often tell me that I am so brave, it’s nice to hear but I don’t consider myself to be brave, I am just a girl who loves her life and the people in it and I want to be here for as long as I can. My life is definitely worth more than my boobs.